`BuSy MoDe`

So, today's the day, huh? ^_^ my cousin's wedding is finally come^^ and all of us were busy preparing stuffs last minute XD We've been sleeping like less than 6 hours during these busy days >.< and my eyes now still wanna sleep... From the day my cousin's proposal to the day before the wedding,we've always went to my grandparent's house from 7pm till 3am and it was pretty exhausting...

I just wished if this were ever finished, I want to scream myself to free myself from this stress XD this is the 2nd time I've been joining these kind of wedding as one of the receptionists... Don't know if this is the same experience as before... haha, guess not cause this is our closest cousin we're talking about^^ the 1st time I did this was my other cousin's wedding but that wasn't the same as this cause it made me nervous all of the sudden >.<

My parent sponsored too much for this wedding >.< and I'm worried that... Umm, never mind -.- cause of that, it stressing me out that if it was my wedding, they will sponsor the same things like this >.< I just wish I can sponsor my own wedding with my own money but guess what? That will not happen to me now XD I guess I have to wait, then^^

And now, it's quite stormy at my place now...  and I think it's going to rain... I wonder how this wedding going to go? 0.o hmm...

~Game~Lover~

Me as a character known as leafa and beside is my own demon, "Morrigan"

The screenshot above shows an MMORPG game that I've played since January 2013 (this year, of course)... It was known as "Shin Megami Tensei: IMAGINE"... Now, still playing it^^ it was fun cause you're not playing it within this country, it was played by peoples all around the world... And you can befriend with them^^ even though you're bored, u're still can chat with your friends^^

And I can easily shared my personal problems with them instead of talking face to face^^ not only that, I was motivated by them all the time when I'm in mood swing^^ and also,they were being helpful too^^

Somehow,I can easily understand them more than I understand about those who around me now... And also in this game, the one who's fighting alongside with you was your very own demon^^ somehow, from what you can see in my screenshot... It seems very confusing, is it? XD... Well, the 1st time I've played it was I don't know which one to click to fight XD

You can build your expertise here... Ah,expertise is which one you want to be either: A Melee (close-range attack), A Mage/Magic (mid-range attack) or A Gunner (long-range attack)... Well, in fact, I'm a gun mage... A gun mage is a mix of being a gunner & a mage^^ which was awesomee XD

~Mood Swings~

I'm not sure if I understand about these college' stuff... Is it we have to register then, know our result after that? That's totally ridiculous >.< stop playing with me... I have a lot of future to think of, you know? Everyone have different futures to think of so, try manage your stuffs wisely so, I can understand -.-

I'm not complaining this but this is what I want to say... Even my mom were like "result 1st, then graduate"... But it was the opposite way... We need to know our results too, you know? Those results lies our futures >_< so, please...

Even other students wait passionately enough for the results...But tell us, why graduate 1st without knowing our results? >.< These doesn't make sense to me at all.... I'm feeling frustrated right now >.<

I have a very long journey to go to what my real future is...so, I need those results to fulfill it^^ Try to be responsible on what you were doing^^ (wait, someone said this to me before?) oh yeah, my SMT's friends did^^ Thanks to them, I able to do continue my journey to my future because I was nearly give up that future^^

"What past is past... You don't have to remember it... Think about now & also, your future" these words made me want to do something good so, I can make my parents proud of me^^ and yeah, my dad always said these things to me as a self-motivation, not some random saying^^

My Drawing Part 2

Amnesia (Kent,Ikki,Toma & Shin)

Amnesia (Heroine & Ikki)

Shin's Female Version --> Shin beside her^^

Ikki's Female Version (For my sweet cousin) 

I'll be continuing my drawing after my June exam later on^^so, don't worry^^

                                       Anyway, hope you guys like it^^

My Drawing Part 1

Arcana Famiglia (Nova, Felicita & Liberta)

Freestyle Drawing

Sword Art Online (Asuna & Kirito)

Sword Art Online (Asuna & Kirito)

Sword Art Online (Asuna & Kirito)

07 Ghost (Teito & Mikage)

07 Ghost (Teito & Mikage)

Sword Art Online (Asuna & Kirito)

What's My Future After This...?

I'm so happy to hear that I'll be graduating with some of my friends^^but the problem is one of our result haven't come out yet but how can they know we'll be graduating without one of our results? 0.0 hmm, VERY weird >.< and then, we have to pay for the registration of our graduation's... I don't know why we have to pay to register? Out of curiosity, I still don't know >.< and the last day for the registration was... 27th April...That's less than 3 weeks more >.<

Because of that, my dream wasn't fulfilled -.- My dream was to go to Brunei Polytechnic but guess that dream wasn't fulfilled -deep sigh-.... Right now, I have to choose whether I have to continue there or continue to other college? >.<

I'm so frustrated right now...Like how am I going to do with my life now? >.< should I continue or go to a new dream instead? I need to move on with a brand new dream.... Or should I not? 0.o My dream was to be an IT student... I envied those who created all Mobile Technologies such as Ipad and any kind of devices^^ like how can they made those things? I was like.... I wanna do that too >.< SO BADLY... I want to know everything...I'm a girl with full curiosity^^

Ican't think of any dreams than that >.< that's my only dream since I was elementary... And now, I have to focus on my driving class too >.< it's 11th hour now, so 4 hours left to go till the driving test 0.0 and my feet can't stop shaking XD -sigh- hmm, I wonder... How am I going to be like when I'm driving later? XD LOL^^ can't imagine it...

I love this song SO BAD!!! XD

The song that I've always listened to was from an anime, "amnesia" ... The anime was released recently... I watched it twice already and still, it doesn't keep me bored^^ Beside I'm an anime-lover, so I like to keep updating what's new & what's old by surfing internet, of course^^

Ah!!!^^nearly forgot about the songs^^the songs was "Zoetrope" by Yanagi Nagi & "Recall" by Ray...Both of them really rock my heart out cause this is my type of songs^^ and yes, it's pretty weird that a mature 19 years old to like ANIME, wasn't it? But that's who I am... An anime lover since elementary school...Guess I was influenced by my friends who like animes as well too^^

Wanna listen?

1) http://youtu.be/FO9IR5D1koQ - this is the opening song for the anime, "amnesia"... I love listening to it everyday^^ hope you do too^^

2) http://youtu.be/nKrW0TajyE4 - this is the ending song for the anime, "amnesia"... Awesome genre for me^^ what do u think?

And here's the lyrics:

1) Zoetrope (Yanagi Nagi) - http://suisei.kokidokom.net/2013/02/14/yanagi-nagi-zoetrope-lyrics-translation/ ---> A very meaningful yet touching lyrics^^

2) Recall (Ray) - http://carlenne.livejournal.com/104191.html ---> A very nice lyrics so, that your heart can listen to it too^^

I've been listening this mostly when I'm bored & when I'm out of town^^Both of these songs really brought me to some place that are calm & nice^^ somehow when I listened to these songs, I can somehow tried to do the beats of the songs XD Frankly, I'm bad at it XD totally failure, LOL^^