~MayMood part 2~

I've been sick since yesterday >.< now, it's getting better cause it's been cooling down... It's good comparing yesterday which was hotter >.< although I'm kind of sick yesterday, I still attend my driving class... haha, pushing myself to the limit, I guess... Even 2 of my friends from the game worries of my health... So, they wished me to get better soon.. I'm fine with just my friends wishing me to get better but my clans (in the game,SMT ) kind of not noticing me that I'm sick... Well, I'm happy that 2 of them were my special friends^^ well, a massive headache plus a fever is a total nightmare for me >.<

Not only 2 of them worried, my cousin also too^^ she was kind enough to wished me get better soon... So, that makes 3 of them were my special friend^^ I still wondering if my "clan" still worries of me? hmm... Ah, that's what you called a group of people in an online game... They just greeted me as soon as I logged but after that, they talked about something else... -deep sigh- of course, they're different but being nice is hard to find these days as some of them tends not to be being an honest person... So, I want to be nice to them but instead, wait... I think that's why I rarely on to that game^^

Well... I might don't care about that^^ to tell you the truth, I have friends that truly cares for me... but need more to fill the gaps within my heart as I like to remembers my memories not only just 2 or 3 peoples, many... I like to remember their laughter, their sorrow and our true bonds... Yeah, I might saying this like jokes but it's true^^ "the person whom you never talked to is the person you liked the most but shy to ask" haha, it's a quote... But, then again... It's true~~ I never talked to someone whom I have admired... But I once talked to him but then, the next day... That's when I started to never talked to him as he talked with a girl... And yes, I'm a little sensitive >.>

Hmm, I wonder if I can make my appearance next week for the graduation rehearsal if this fever still consumes me? -.- I can't stop worrying about it~~ oh well, better get well real soon~~ and I meant ASAP >.<

~My Fav Songz,sang by AmaLee and Annalie~

The english version of these songs were very nice^^ even more, I'm in love with it since all of them were my favorite animes and the lyrics was nice too^^ it is such a great yet nice piece of works^^ keep up the good work, Amanda Lee and Annalie^^ I'll support your work^^ and maybe I can make my own covers for the near future later on^^haha, I wish though^^

~MayMood part 1~

So, in less than a week, I have my rehearsal for our graduation... Well, kinda nervous about it but also happy^^ can't wait to continue my next level^^ life's full of challenges & that's what I like^^ challenges is the 1st thing I do for my future... Just go straight & don't stop on pursuing your dream^^ GO GO~~~

Other than my graduation around the corner, there's a lot happening in my life^^ I'm not only a computer student but also, a baker^^ I like to bake cake instead of cooking...haha^^ no offence though^^ I'm just not that into cooking... I'll always bake whenever I have free time like after exam^^ not only me, my maid & my sisters were interested too... haha~ and they're improved bit by bit^^

I keep updating if there's any animes that interest me^^ and there were Code Breakers, D Grayman, Amnesia and many more... Currently, I've been watching Code Breaker in my laptop^^ It reminds me of an anime, "Blue Exorcist" that my cousin's was trying to download...I'm not sure if she finish downloading it?... Hmm, well.... Hope she finishes it~~

Code Breaker was fun to watch... My type of anime... The mystery & sci-fi type... I'm into horror, mystery, sci-fi, romance & high school - type of anime...

~Unknown~

I don't know what to do now? I don't even want to know what am I doing... What is going on with my life lately? I thought it would be like happy,cheerful & being my real self...but now, I can't seem to know how am I feeling right now? Why did it happened now? Mom, Dad... I don't know what's going on between you two... I can't stop worrying about it... I even cried since yesterday...

I don't care whether you care about me or not... I just want to know if both of you really going to be just fine... I'm writing this cause I'm being serious... And this is the 1st time I let my real feelings out...

I don't care about others but as long as both of you are going to be just fine, I'll be the happiest kid in my whole life... I kept thinking while crying about you two... Please don't make my life suffer more deeply...

I keep pursuing my dream because of you two... Both of you motivated me to keep going to whichever path you want to take... I'm still holding that dream until now & I'm not giving up... I don't want my graduation to be a waste if both of you still acting like this... 

Frankly, I want both of you to be there, see me in a graduation robe & taking my diploma... I want both of you to be proud of me... And that's mean, I want all of my family to be proud of me on which path am I going to take in the near future...

Lastly, as one of your daughters... I want both of you to be happy... And that's that^^ and please stop ignoring each other... It pains me to see that... Even worse, I'm very upset... I'm only saying this not because that I'm your daughter but also, as a matured girl who worried about it...

Although I might be clumsy but I'm might be thinking that... Life is full of obstacles & challenges... And that's right^^ it is challenging... I wonder if this is what you called obstacles that gets in your way or just a challenge to test your feelings? Still wondering about that until now...

`BuSy MoDe`

So, today's the day, huh? ^_^ my cousin's wedding is finally come^^ and all of us were busy preparing stuffs last minute XD We've been sleeping like less than 6 hours during these busy days >.< and my eyes now still wanna sleep... From the day my cousin's proposal to the day before the wedding,we've always went to my grandparent's house from 7pm till 3am and it was pretty exhausting...

I just wished if this were ever finished, I want to scream myself to free myself from this stress XD this is the 2nd time I've been joining these kind of wedding as one of the receptionists... Don't know if this is the same experience as before... haha, guess not cause this is our closest cousin we're talking about^^ the 1st time I did this was my other cousin's wedding but that wasn't the same as this cause it made me nervous all of the sudden >.<

My parent sponsored too much for this wedding >.< and I'm worried that... Umm, never mind -.- cause of that, it stressing me out that if it was my wedding, they will sponsor the same things like this >.< I just wish I can sponsor my own wedding with my own money but guess what? That will not happen to me now XD I guess I have to wait, then^^

And now, it's quite stormy at my place now...  and I think it's going to rain... I wonder how this wedding going to go? 0.o hmm...

~Game~Lover~

Me as a character known as leafa and beside is my own demon, "Morrigan"

The screenshot above shows an MMORPG game that I've played since January 2013 (this year, of course)... It was known as "Shin Megami Tensei: IMAGINE"... Now, still playing it^^ it was fun cause you're not playing it within this country, it was played by peoples all around the world... And you can befriend with them^^ even though you're bored, u're still can chat with your friends^^

And I can easily shared my personal problems with them instead of talking face to face^^ not only that, I was motivated by them all the time when I'm in mood swing^^ and also,they were being helpful too^^

Somehow,I can easily understand them more than I understand about those who around me now... And also in this game, the one who's fighting alongside with you was your very own demon^^ somehow, from what you can see in my screenshot... It seems very confusing, is it? XD... Well, the 1st time I've played it was I don't know which one to click to fight XD

You can build your expertise here... Ah,expertise is which one you want to be either: A Melee (close-range attack), A Mage/Magic (mid-range attack) or A Gunner (long-range attack)... Well, in fact, I'm a gun mage... A gun mage is a mix of being a gunner & a mage^^ which was awesomee XD

~Mood Swings~

I'm not sure if I understand about these college' stuff... Is it we have to register then, know our result after that? That's totally ridiculous >.< stop playing with me... I have a lot of future to think of, you know? Everyone have different futures to think of so, try manage your stuffs wisely so, I can understand -.-

I'm not complaining this but this is what I want to say... Even my mom were like "result 1st, then graduate"... But it was the opposite way... We need to know our results too, you know? Those results lies our futures >_< so, please...

Even other students wait passionately enough for the results...But tell us, why graduate 1st without knowing our results? >.< These doesn't make sense to me at all.... I'm feeling frustrated right now >.<

I have a very long journey to go to what my real future is...so, I need those results to fulfill it^^ Try to be responsible on what you were doing^^ (wait, someone said this to me before?) oh yeah, my SMT's friends did^^ Thanks to them, I able to do continue my journey to my future because I was nearly give up that future^^

"What past is past... You don't have to remember it... Think about now & also, your future" these words made me want to do something good so, I can make my parents proud of me^^ and yeah, my dad always said these things to me as a self-motivation, not some random saying^^